To say that BEING is easy is not wrong and yet sometimes it can be just plain hard, or at least it feels that way. You can feel dashed upon the rocks and tumbled about or stuck in an eddy going nowhere on your journey. The ultimate goal is to be in the flow, to Be present in every moment of your life and let life show you where you are going. As a tried and true, Be-er, living in the flow is what I strive for. To live it and breathe it, to simply Be….
I am not perfect, none of us are, and just because I have written books, lead workshops, and basically make my living helping others to stay grounded and in their Beingness does not mean that I don’t trip up, sometimes stumble and fall headlong into the pool. I strive to Be most of the time and sometimes I am successful and other times I fail miserably. I am Ok with that.
In truth if I were so far into my Being as to never step out of its flow, I would no longer be connected to the world and, at least for now, I like being connected.
I have been really working on clearing out the old patterns and beliefs that still keep me stuck in past and out of my Being and past patterns of behavior that are not currently serving me. It is deep work that has been and continues to be very rewarding. As I have been doing the work it has stirred up a lot. Much of which is undefinable and yet powerfully emotionally challenging. I am working with a dear friend and mentor Sharon Reigie Maynard . Even mentors and spiritual leaders need mentors, others who can see what we cannot and help lead us out.
This week has been particularly challenging, I have been working to get the BEING MOMENTS phone Apps up and running. I’m working with a wonderful developer, Matthew Dean, and as technology can be sometimes, there have been a few snafus! I have also been working with my Web developer, Steffen Fanger, very talented and wonderful at keeping me on point. Now normally I can just go with the flow, let everything be in its own time and pace. However, this week I have wanted to push….push….push! The old habitual behaviors and control freakness have crept in and have been running the show full force for 5 days! Ok, maybe not 24 hours a day but long enough to have me in a tizzy of self doubt and confusion.
Being – A Practical Guide to Living in the Moment, my book which is just about to be published and available online, it is a labor of love born of years of putting Being into practice and living it everyday. It has been a wonderful teacher as I learn to let go, to know without a doubt that it has its own expression in the world and I am merely the vehicle for it to manifest into this dimension at this time. I have been wanting it to be perfect and it already is. All of the pushing and worrying and cajoling and whatnot will not make it any better any more perfect. it was perfection when it came in and it will remain perfection.
So as a person Living Being every day, I am acknowledging that Being can Be messy, undone, disheveled and anything else that comes along with life. Sometimes it’s just not pretty. Always remember, there is always time to change your mind, move in a different direction, stub your toe, stumble and pick yourself up, dust yourself off and get back to it. Life and Being are not a race to see who gets there faster, better and with the most brownie points. Each one of us is here on our own terms, in our own way and pace and in our own flow. So just relax and enjoy the ride!
If you find yourself on your own path of Being and are needing a little support… you can always check out my website for more suggestions… www.lorayneevangelyn.com Remember, Being is not the destination, it is the journey that continually unfolds.
I wish you days filled with joy, laughter, plenty of love and a flow that is free from strife.