I am so grateful for all of the many friends, associates and family who continually inspire me.
Today I learned a very powerful lesson; The level of my ability to recieve is directly proportionate to my ability to give freely.
I use to be the most generous person, I was constantly giving little gifts to people I loved. When I grandmother passed away I seemed to stop giving. I remember someone telling me (at least what I heard) that I was giving to get…love, attention, power, you name it. All of this happened around the same time and so I just stopped. It was not a consious thought to stop, but I did. I grew empty, sad, lost.
What I realized today is that giving brought me great JOY and Happiness. What I stopped was my happiness, my joy. I was not giving to get from the other person, I was giving to feel the internal Self-Love, the pure unadulterated joy of watching as someone took pleasure in the moment. I was reveling in there delight because it brought me delight in my heart. It reminded me of how much I am loved by ME!
As you allow yourself to receive the gift you give to yourself by your generosity, open up to and allow yourself to receive the joy. Tune into your feelings. What is it you are feeling? Revel in the joy of the gift to you, Self Love!